hello june!

its been one whole month siaaaal. well yeah may wasnt a good month. but then lifes like a wave and it goes up and down. i cant believe im so jaded im just riding this high waiting for the next low to come. i found long lost cousins! can you believe that. their all.. old and stuff and i remember going to their house when i was a baby.

ooh so many people coming back soon! joleen weiyang kealeng govind and yuzhen and and i cant remember who else la. and im stuck on a bloody island! all of u just get on a plane n come here la wei!

hmm hmm. i tried joining the worship group at the church here recently. but what the hell they didnt want me. i mean. its not like i cant play. im not fantastic la. but i can play the guitar. so why the hell dont you take me damnit?! then i leave for a few months, and i come back and find theres this poyo mofo playing for them. and all he does is stand there and play power chords. POWER CHORDS! CLEAN! ARGH. and im standing there in the middle of worship thing, staring at poyo guitar guy and going “and they thought I wasnt good enough?!” do i have leprosy or like.. obvious skin cancer in places on my body that i cant see or something?! crazy la. and argh. i can play the fricking drums la. and the baldie old man who rejected me and proceeded to get hair implants is letting a 5 year old girl play. im telling you its just INFURIATING LA. i cant be much worse than a 5 year old girl can i?! or someone who wears tight shirts and plays POWER CHORDS TO WORSHIP SONGS CLEAN. ARGH. okay end of rant. hahaha.